Friday, November 21, 2014

My Thanksgiving

 Graham about to walk his sister down the aisle

Thanksgiving has always been my favorite holiday.
I love preparing with the Macy's Parade in the background.

"When is Santa coming, mommy?"

We don't have a large family.
So for me,
it's a peaceful day.

No matter where we are.
New Jersey, Annapolis, Acton or here.

Today I am preparing for 15. 
Ironically my two will not be with me.

Both for very exciting reasons, 
but they won't be here.

Being a grown up is hard. 
Elizabeth Stone said it best;
"Making the decision to have a child is momentous. 
It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."

I am grateful for the amazing lives 
Alexandra and Graham are living.
I am blessed for the life I have lived.
It is not one I would have chosen.
But out of it, there has been good.
I am thankful.

PS Tomorrow Alexandra and I are having 
a mini Thanksgiving. We are make our dressing 
and we will send it to Graham.
Even though we'll not be together,
it will taste yummy! 
I love you 

One of our happiest and most thankful moments this year

Photographs by Josh Adam Photography

Monday, November 3, 2014

Here is something you might not know about me.
I'm a Virgo
I don't fit a lot of the characteristics of a classic Virgo
But here's what I am.
A perfectionist.
For those of you who know me
and the coffee just came spewing out of your nose...
Not THAT kind of perfectionist.
I am the kind of perfectionist who
is renedered paralyzed if I don't think I am able to do things perfectly.

and the list goes on.

As we speak, I have three blog posts started and I am not ready to post them.

And so today,
I started another.
Although I am not a perfect photographer.
I seem to be ok with that.
The more I take photos, 
the more I learn.
The more I learn,
the more I appreciate what I am doing.
The other day I was nominated in a five day
Black and White Photo Challenge


All photos take by
Cheryl Sparks Photography

Friday, August 29, 2014

August 30th once again

What greater thing is there for two human souls
than to feel they are joined together
to strengthen each other in all labour,
to minister each other in all sorrow,
to share with each other in all gladness,
to be with each other in the silent unspoken memories.

George Eliot

This was the first reading at Alexandra and Mark's wedding ceremony on August 16.
I have read it so many times after hearing it that afternoon.
They chose such a perfect reading. 
Watching them grow as a couple
I believe this is who they are.

These past 10 months have been bittersweet.
Mark's proposal was as joyful as I had felt in years.
The lump in all of our throats was knowing that Kenny would  not be here.
But that Saturday night, the pure magic that happened....
well, it couldn't have happened without his help.
I know that.

So Kenny, thank you for being here for us.
For a day that none of us will ever forget. 
The love we felt was immeasurable. 

I miss you every day.
I missed you even more this summer.
Making decisions by myself, doing yardwork that I hate.
Planning a day that we should have planned together.
Welcoming friends and loved ones to our home.
You should have done that.
You would have been so proud,
and spoken much better than me.
But now we have a perfect memory
as we turn the calendar to August.

We are doing ok, Kenny.
We are getting stronger,
your three musketeers.

Friday, June 27, 2014

"Dogs are not our whole life,
But they make our lives whole."
Roger A. Caras

Dear Henry,

Mama showed us this picture to explain that you used to live in Aspen.
We thought you always lived with us. Emma-dog reminded us that
"no, for a little while, she was the only pup in the house, and then we came
to live with her, then you came to live with us." It's sometimes confusing for our 
brains, you know. 
We have been looking for you on that little mountain you stand on, and in the 
back corner you go to when you want to hide from Mama. We know she misses you.
She told us that really, Graham is your human, and you need each other. We kind of
understand, because you told us you missed him. Is that who you were looking for when
you were on the top of the mountain? 
I (Gus) had to go to the Vet yesterday. They are very nice, but I hate those shots. I am healthy,
but you know, they giggled at me and said I sound like a monkey when I get all worked up. 
Mama just laughed. Rude.
That's it for today. 
We miss you, Henry. 
Mama is busy planning Alexandra and Marky's wedding. She hasn't had a lot of time, 
so I think we are going to hijack this blog until the wedding is over. 

Friday, April 18, 2014

A Beautiful Morning
When each partner loves so completely
that he has forgotten to ask himself
whether or not he is loved in return;
when he only knows that he loves
and is moving to its music
then, and only then
 are two people able to
dance perfectly in tune to the same rhythm.
prose by
Anne Morrow Lindbergh
Gift from the Sea
photography by 

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Happy Birthday Kenny

Happy Birthday Dear Kenny,


The number of  days since I've seen you.

You didn't love celebrating things like birthdays.

Or any occasion that Hallmark deemed card-worthy.

You celebrated the little things. 

I have have all those nothing special cards, you know.

I tucked them all away, and I find them. 

They are a gift whenever I do. 

I think of you each day.

Wondering what you are thinking of all we are doing.

We miss you.

I miss you.

We were lucky, you and I.